Monday, November 8, 2010

No song. This is to important


Sunday, November 7, 2010

"Watch out now, 'Cause im just too fake for the world. I don't like it but its true."

I hate it how random people do this. You think you were the first. No. Shut.The.Fuck.Up. Try since 3rd grade. Try hating yourself since 3rd grade. Stop it. You think your cool because you do it. But STOP. YOUR NOT. ITS FUCKING ANNOYING. You don't even know how mad. I don't even know why. I used to not care. But knowing random people do it FOR NO REASON that makes me mad. Some people do it to do it. To get attention. To say they have. But really. Thats FAKE. Yes. FAKE.
Fuck off haters.

Friday, November 5, 2010

"And the world will role pass clearly. SUNSHINEEEE"

I have convinced myself that you hate me. I feel like that other girl you hate. But then you love. But you still hate. You pretend to like people so often that I have even noticed. You still talk to me, but I bet you talk ABOUT me to other people. I feel like you don't approve. Or you just use me to look better. You don't even invite me to things. I feel like a follower, a stalker, a hater, a copier. And that list could go on forever. I sit at homes on my friday nights. I want too. I like being alone. I like going to bed early. I like being home alone. I hate being social. I hate being fat. I hate pretending. I love being with you. I love texting him. But thats probably it. I hate looking at other people and thinking how easy they are. They are the 3 things that come so easily to them, but not to others. Skinny. Pretty. And Popular. Not to mention they actually have boobs. They can tell their parents anything. They can go to the hospital. Their parents actually believe them. Their parents don't try to know everything in their life. Their parents actually say goodnight to them, not only their siblings. But their parents actually know what's going on with them.

But, wait. That's all the things I actually want. . .

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Roll it up

Take a bit; lil' bit; roll it up; take a hit; feelin' lit; feelin light; 2am summer night<3

Kid cudi again.


It's kind of sad, how much of a stoner he is. But I still love him. Speaking of Kid Cudi, I was talking to a guy, not saying any names, and we were talking about music and Kid Cudi and he was saying about how much of a stoner he is and he will probably die of drugs, and I said when that day comes, I will cry myself to sleep and kill myself so I can be with him (as in Kid Cudi) and the boy said that he hoped that day wouldn't come<3

I.almost.pee'd.myself. (as Ella would say).

But thats all. No more happy love stories. It probably won't work out, my heart is torn between 3 guys I am too embarressed to even tell my best friend. The 4th one is creeping in... Hopefully 3 will then run out... If I'm lucky. (which I won't.)

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Im on the Pursuit

"I’m On The Pursuit Of Happiness And I Know Everything That Shines Ain’t Always Gonna Be Gold I’ll Be Fine Once I Get It; I’ll Be Good"

I will succeed I just need to work for it.
I will live I just need to breath every once in a while
I will get you, I just need to show I like someone for the first time in years...

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Hey baby

"Hey, Hey bebe OH AHHH! I wanna knowwwwwww if you be my girl<3"-Avid

I have decided that I will now start all my blogposts with a lyric from a song. some will be good. some will be bad (like this one..)